Hi Whymee, welcome to the forum and thank you for sharing your story and for being so honest.
Congratulations on being 7 days sober! I know from my son’s experience how hard it is in early recovery. He had to completely abstain from alcohol as it triggers the need for cocaine.
He has had to avoid his usual group of Friends as this is a trigger also. The guys who he has met through CA and AA groups are really supportive. They organise weekend events and socialise . It’s just training the brain to a newer, healthier way of living- a new lifestyle choice.
My son has undiagnosed ocd, everything he does it’s 100%. The doc said he could get any counselling until he was 6 months clean. But then there’s a long waiting list unfortunately. I think he has undiagnosed adhd too.
It certainly explains a lot of his rash decisions and disorganisation, accidents in cars etc. and addictions.
I’m sure you’ll find love again and be happy- just be strong, seek support to get through this time.
Take care
Lx