Hi Jamesb
So sorry to hear you’re struggling, I know from my son’s experience how hard it is to deal with sad or difficult situations while you are in recovery.
Perhaps you could share this with someone close to help you through? The fellowship guys are so supportive in times of need, I know they’ve helped my son through some difficult times in his recovery.
I would say it’s normal to still want to grieve, perhaps a bereavement counselling service may help you.
Please stay strong, seek support and look after yourself- you have been so supportive to others here, don’t be afraid to seek support if you need it.
My son is your age, I’d like to think he’d seek support if he was in your situation, I wouldn’t want him being upset or struggling. I know they would be so proud of what you have achieved so far. ❤️
Stay strong lad,
I’ll keep you in my thoughts and prayers.
Lx