Yes it’s a filthy poison, my whole neighbourhood seems to be poisoned by this disgusting substance. I seem to be the only person round here who is opposed to it. Loads of people who don’t have a real job driving in flash cars paid for by other peoples wages, really so sad it’s awful. I don’t know why nothing gets done.
You’re right I’m not the same, my life’s not the same, but I have been working on it, working on myself. I’m starting to be financially self sufficient which is a big step to make my life better. Worries over money have really affected my mental health so I’m feeling positive about this going ahead. However I do feel like it’s completely destroyed my trust in people and caused me massive anxiety issues. I struggle to sleep and often lay awake til all hours worrying about what a mess he’s got in to and feeling guilty that this is the father I’ve give my kids, and I also have nightmares often. Then it’s a bad cycle of waking up tired, being run down and struggling generally. To then be wide awake anxious again that night.