Thank you and at the moment I really feel I literally am going through hell. One of the things I find most difficult to understand is that he cared more about cocaine than me as he knew that it would be the end for us if I found out again. I guess that is addiction although as you say he wouldn’t admit that. He comes from a good family and yet his older brother is also a cocaine addict and alcoholic and lives at home with his mum where my husband will be also. His brother has been 4 years of it but cost him his marriage also. I asked him to do a urine test and he thought he would get away with putting water in the pot and also had been taking to going for a wee downstairs which he never did before as he knew that the previous time that I had been testing his wee in the morning. I was suspicious about this but tried to think no he wouldn’t do it again but how wrong was I. I pray that I will be able to get through this nightmare and come out the other side with relief but I think it will take a long time as generally we got on so well and I believed he was my soulmate. Thank you again – it really helps to see someone else’s aspect on things x
