Hi Stanbhoy ,welcome to the forum and thank you for sharing your story here.
I agree with Maz, you have taken the first difficult step by admitting you have a problem and want support. That’s big step in the right direction!
My 29 yr son has alcohol and cocaine addictions, the alcohol triggers the need for cocaine. He reached out for help a couple of years ago. He joined AA and CA groups and attends regular meetings. The fellowship guys are so supportive and understand what you’re going through. You work a 12 step program with a sponsor, and someone is always there for you .
I’m proud to say that he is currently 10 months clean. He initially had some relapses, and been through some difficult times, but he says his meetings are his medicine.
You can get through this my friend, but you need the support from these groups. You can get through this, get back to your job in a barbers and live your life again. Your family will be so happy to see you free from this evil drug, it will be so worth it, but first and foremost, do it for you.
Read Jamesb or Danman83 posts, they are guys in early recovery, just scroll back a bit.
Stay strong
Lx ❤️