Hi Flo! Firstly, well done for taking the first steps to gaining back control over these pills. It’s a tough journey but very worth it I promise.
Tapering is definitely an easier approach when you’re disciplined enough to follow it through. You seem determined that you want to stop and thsts the key ingredient to it all really. Taper slowly at a pace you’re comfortable with and withdrawals will be so much less than you experienced in Spain. Ensure your body is used to the lower dose before tapering to the next tapered dose and so on. During the tapering process, ensure you eat well, drink lots of water and get some light exercise in so that your body is in good shape for when you stop the pills altogether. It will help you manage the withdrawals you do get from stopping completely.
And you don’t sound silly. Talking to people who understand really helps. It’s a very isolating life at times where you feel nobody but you are struggling but as you see from this forum, loads of people are in the same boat! You can do this!
We’re all here to help and support you if you need it ❤️ X