Hey lovely
Oh my… the 5 a.m. or middle of the night waking you up to say they’re hungry. Mine does the exact same. It makes me feel really angry… because I have always prepared food and he’s just chosen not to eat it! So then he expects/orders me to get up and heat his food up… when I’m so tired and have either been sleeping or trying to get to sleep. I wait on the man hand and foot.
Mine made the same accusation a while ago about me having all his money and also told other people that untruth. Plus, he also started asking how much I was earning (mine fluctuates as I freelance) and where it was etc.
What you said about weight loss – so in my limited experience, this has happened to my addict twice. Both times when he switched to doing crack. A person can either buy the rocks of crack that people tend to think about or create it from the powder. Do you think he might have switched to doing that instead of just the powder. I noticed mine would do powder around others and the crack by himself.
Since the switch to crack is when things really took a turn for the worse as it completely changed his mood… paranoia, psychosis, unable to sleep, suicidal and very agressive/violent when off it.
I also have had the same thoughts about OD. My one took an OD of prescription meds last autumn. Someone found him… not long before it would have been no turning back and they were able to save him. You can imagine how I’ve felt about that at times. Life would be so much easier without having to deal with this!
So today he admitted that the money he had promised me he’d pay me back he got early on Monday (like earlier than planned) and in his words… he messed up and spent it (on a thing). So…. my conversation yesterday with him was based upon him knowing he’d done that and me not knowing… all the time be blames me for using and when I’m not there he’s still using. Ironic.
Anyway, he is arranging to get his family to pay me back as it’s put me into unarranged overdraft, for the second time recently, and I’m beyond unhappy about that. So I hope his family do help this time.
Anyway, I begged him one final time to confide in his doc for his sake and that of our child. He won’t as he doesn’t think they can help.
He basically told me he has thrown everything out associated with the stuff and stopped answering the calls/texts and started to get his affairs in order. I need to ask him if he’s deleted the numbers. Thing is, even if he does, he knows people who he could get the numbers off again so hardly much of a precaution.
I return there tomorrow… massive sigh… here we go again.
You are right….we are this together. Life has to get better.