hi kire, i can’t reply in full now but just wanted to send a massive hug and say you’re not alone. your situation sounds very similar to mine and if you look for stuff I’ve written you’ll see that there is hope of sorts.
if he wants to get clean… i can’t recommend ca (cocaine anonymous uk) highly enough.. they will be glad to help.
i know very much how you must be feeling right now… sick, frightened and deeply hurt.. it’s awful .. but you can get through.. it’s a long road… i think staying with them is possibly harder than just throwing in the towel, because you will have lots of conflicting polar opposite feelings… it is worth it to try though i feel, especially if you have kids/house/etc… but only in my view if they’re genuinely willing to change and make amends xxxx
massive hugs to you and know this.. we are all with you and understand only too well this mightmare… its