Hiya Debbie hope your OK. Only just read the last few of these comments because there seems to be loads. I’m over month clean now from coke. And your going on about his lies ect.. That’s part and parcel of being a addict. Sometimes we don’t even know we’re lying. Then there are lies that are just pointless lies.
He can give u so many reasons why he’s going to stop ect.. I did.. My 2nd kid was born.. Gonna.stop.. 7 years later my boy was born.. Gonna stop. Never happens. We will never stop for anyone. The only thing that will stop us or help us if we have enough pain. Meaning are rock bottom. And that’s it, I’ve had enough of this crap mentality.
There are women in the c.a meetings all nice woman, and have had there kids took off them. We can’t stop for our kids.
And this is the frightening thing about this drug.
I had a few rock bottoms, 1 example I used in my house alone when kids were in bed and gf. Litrally when my bag was empty and nothing left.. I was crying, it’s a horrible feeling, it sends u suicide and depressed for weeks.
So I joined cocaine anonymous last year. I’ve had 3 month and 4 month and a few months here and there. But I’m now over 4 month and 10 days off my best clean time in 12 year.
So In C. A you get a sponsor work the 12 steps, and you change your life around. One of the things is I cant lie.. Lying leads to using. I cut old friends off for good. They are not real mates. I’ve got new mates now all clean and I trust.
I lead a honest life. I work for the Bank mon to fri.. But Sundays I now do care work which is rewarding and helps me. I can’t drink anymore. I meditate. I’m a better dad. I feel so much happier now.
I compare it to.. When your at school and not a worry in the world. That good feeling. I feel like that and I have my life back. But I am. Not cured. I have to do this program the rest of my life. I can go into more detail if your husband wants to stop
Does he??
If he does not and its effecting you and your mental health, and financial health. Do u really want to keep putting up with that.. Hope this helps. Feel free to ask me anything. Just making my tea so it’s a bit rushed.. Sorry