Faith, you put it all so well.
I think this really comes down to, can you deal with being married to someone who takes drugs, because really thats all there is to think about.
I’m not about to tell you what to do, because I didnt listen to my closest friends because I thought I knew best. BUT, if I didnt have a child with mine, I would have left him long ago, because we’ve been married 14 years, together 17, our child is 10, and for at least 50% of the time we’ve been together, it was rubbish, and for 10% of it, it was truly awful, looking back now I wonder if I should have had my head read, manipulation was off the scale, lies were daily, outbursts, accusations, belittling, treading on eggshells.
I still now, think deeply before I speak because I’ve learned how to engage differently in response to his past reactions to situations. I don’t need to, but its ingrained now. Certain clothes he wears triggers my brain to remembering certain moments, certain places bring back memories, its not a great situation to be in.
I dont know how he treats you generally, i mean when you are doing what he wants and not asking questions, probably ok right…. So can you put up with living like that, and also thinking that it could get worse as he doesnt think he has a problem.
I wish you strength too Debbie x