Hi K023, I’m so sorry to hear your story it all sounds really familiar… Firstly, I think you really need some support, I’m saying this as I tried to manage by myself, I was ashamed to tell my friends and ended up struggling to cope. There is a charity who often on here who offer counselling and support but to be honest just talking to someone, knowing I was not the only one with a child who was an addict and that it wasn’t my fault really helped. My son is now 2 1/2 years clean after a battle with all kinds of drugs. Getting clean came from him, he went to rehab and relapsed several times, we sent him away to family away from influences but he still found drugs…we took control of his money, took away his car keys . He finally hit rock bottom , his good friends deserted him and he lost several to overdoses.In the end , just when I’d given up hope he found AA and CA a good sponsor and found his way. Please keep the faith, he will get there , you sound like an amazing mum. You sound like you’re getting tougher and not enabling him (which is key but so hard to do!!) would he agree to join a support group do you think?