Thanks Paula and Margot. I will look out for the charity that offers counselling on here, as I feel I need support from professionals or at least from people that have some experience of what I’m going through. I am lucky that I have a couple of friends that I can confide in and that are willing to listen. You’re right, I feel ashamed too that my son is an addict.
I found some NA online groups for my son to join just a few days ago. My son registered but his phone wouldn’t work for the group and he gave up. He then went out and came home that night without using. I had renewed hope.
However last night he stayed out, he’s obviously been using and probably still is. I know the signs. I’ve no doubt that I won’t see him now for the rest of the weekend and just worry if he’s alive or dead, hospitalised or incarcerated.
He has no money, so how he is affording the cocaine I have no idea. He says he gives lifts to people for money.
Thanks again, Paula and Margot, for responding to my message. (I didn’t realise that the emails from Adfam were going to my junk folder.) Both your messages have given me hope. I won’t give up trying to get him to talk to NA and I won’t give up on him.