That’s how I feel, so cynical – he phoned me just now and said he was on the High Street and my immediate thought was that he was meeting his dealer as I won’t see him until Wednesday evening. I really don’t want to have to feel like this but now we have paid a non refundable balance for the honeymoon so feel I have to try to make this work with everything I have and hope that he will too. I am feeling a lot stronger now though and for the first time ever a couple of times over the weekend I found myself looking at him and thinking do I really want this person in my life. It’s his birthday this weekend and I think we are going to stay at his mum’s house and his kids will be there including the one that hates me (this was also said to me over the weekend – I was thinking my kids hate you but I would never say this to you!!) I am dreading that he will stay up late and take coke again with his son. xx
