it’s okay to take time to figure out what we really want from our relationship, and even whether we want it at all x
my husband and i talked yesterday about how this horrible thing is always going to be there, no matter what and maybe walking away might have been easier.
we’re all just acrabbling in the remains of what we thought we had, sometimes there are enough pieces to make something worthwhile, but it’s never the same. some parts of our relationship are better, but it still points back to the bad stuff.
i hope we make it and I’m 100% committed, but it’s not got that shine we once had.
in honesty i should have walked away years ago, before the drugs .. everyone envied us but behind closed doors he’s been an absolute nightmare… that’s how he got away with it for so long.. he was just worse than normal and progressed into complete insanity over the active addiction period.
anyway… what im saying is… dont beat yourself up for not leaving a tricky relationship… it’s not that easy x