Hi JFT and thank you for such kind words xx
You already know what you want and how to get there ,now all you have to do is stick to it .And i am sure you can do this ! For yourself ,for your partner and the close ones . Let them see the better version of you ???? You deserve to be happy and healthy .In terms of the mental health the antidepressants definitely helped me survive ,sleeping aid too . And the biggest part of my recovery was music in my earphones ???? Everyone is different and you just need to find those things that give you euphoric feeling and are not called codeine ???? Here for you if you need me x