hi notmyrealname x
i haven’t seen you on here for a while and i can’t remember your story. are you in the situation of a partner in recovery or active addiction? my husband is almost 15 months clean but it’s still a struggle for us both. staying off the drug is the *easy* part… he struggles with shame and paranoia and low self esteem and i struggle to accept where we are/where i am and what he’s said and done because of his addiction.
i know it was the addiction speaking for him, but he chose to go down the dangerous path of secretly taking cocaine… how did he think it would work out!? if you regularly ingest addictive substances it inevitably will lead to addiction.
yes, i know nobody sets out to be an addict but most people take sensible steps to avoid such a life. i feel very let down, even though im relieved he got clean.
now im waffling!
sending love, as always to my fellow addicts’ wives/partners/loved ones xx