Hi Help help,
Please don’t feel bad to ask for help . The doctors wouldn’t report you ,there are a lot of women on here who can confirm that . I don’t think going cold turkey is an option for you as you still need to look after yourself and the babies but you could try tapering perhaps? Going from 60 to 8 a day is a very big jump ,you should slow down . I could never taper but there are a few people on here who did it ,they might be able to advise xx I am very sorry to hear about your father ????Talking to a counsellor might help with a grieving process.Have you tried any therapy ?
Wishing you all the best xx Here if you need me