Hi Brini ,
I know ,it’s really difficult to make that first step and just stop taking them ..it took me 3 attempts and i think when it’s your time ,you just go and do it .if you have good self control,i would suggest to taper .I was never disciplined enough to do it and knew it’s either cold turkey or nothing . These pills ruin your life ,they make you a different person that you start to dislike ( at list that’s how I felt) . If you decide to go cold turkey route i suggest you prepare yourself both mentally and physically, make a plan,take some time off work or any important meetings as your body and mind will be all over the place .It is hard but doable and in a weird way satisfying with every day you stay clean . I would do it again if i had to, to be free . Wishing you the best of luck ,Here if you need any support xx