ah meant to say two other things… first and foremost you have probably had a terrible shock, and are feeling very frightened for the future… discovering your loved one is an addict/living with an addict really takes a toll on our mental health.
i used to be a very positive, outgoing, confident and happy go lucky person, now I’m a shadow of what i used to be, i have very bad ptsd, depressed, anxious, sad and afraid for the future. i always expect the worst now. i look at people and feel afraid of what they’re really like and i have very little ability to trust. im working on this of course. i had six months of talking therapy.
anyway I’m not moaning… im just saying that it is normal to feel very messed up and confused and heartbroken in our shoes, this life is not what we dreamed of growing up.
it’s important to acknowledge it and get help/support. all my family and a few close friends know what has happened. they’ve been amazing. we cannot possibly carry this burden alone.
i totally recommend confiding as you are always surprised by the level of kindness and understanding people actually have.
failing that… we’re all here for you too xx
one final thing… addicts need to be extremely careful with prescription medicines… especially those for anxiety etc… could be a very slippery slope here. be very careful.
anyway… big hugs and take care of yourself xxx????