Hello,
Sorry to hear you are going through this but it sounds like your husband is in denial about what he’s doing which is often what they do to minimise It, like it’s not a problem and they are in control of it but they’re not.
It takes a lot of patience to block out what they’re doing and how they treat you. Mine promised to stop numerous times but could never quite stop for good, he ended up blaming me for the drugs he’s took, as if he needed a reason to use.
It’s made me really ill all the lying, the deceit, the manipulation the anger/mood swings… the list goes on.
If you are wanting to stick it out, I would seek some help for yourself such as counselling or find something that makes you happy, as it really does start to take an emotional toll on you.
If your husband isn’t ready to admit or take responsibility for his actions, make sure you continue to look after yourself, stay strong xx