Hi FNF – I don’t think so as have been testing – he just gets very belittling and angry sometimes and just goes off on one – its like these words keep pouring out of his mouth in a tirade and won’t stop – its weird – I don’t think I could do that if I tried. Some of it makes no sense – I wish I had the hindsight to record it and play it back to him – I think he would be quite shocked at his behaviour.
Hi Riesena – if you want my absolute honest opinion and if you want a normal life and I just wish I could do it, I would leave as I think it takes a certain type of person to get addicted to coke as we all seem to be in the same situation with the same sort of person. You’re only 31 and you have such a lot of life to live and enjoy. And it seems also that everyone that has been in our situation has been struck to the core and are always looking over our shoulder expecting everything to come crumbling down once more. I never can think that it will all be over and things will be wonderful. Sorry if this sounds hard and hypocritical coming from me who is still there but there will be someone out there for you who will also make you very happy. I wish I had never got married to be honest but I didn’t know about this addiction before although I had caught him a couple of times and if I had I would never have got married. I am giving him one last chance and I think he knows that. Like FNF says set your boundaries and stick to them. I hope you are ok xx