I’m so sorry that you had to go through this. Like I said, it’s sometimes harder to walk away when they are ‘nice’ and want to stop. It makes me sad how many people struggle with it, and how heartless their actions are.
It does feel like my partner had made some progress. He was bed bound with depression for about 4 months, wouldn’t eat and he would smoke weed the moment he opened his eyes, even if it was 7am in the morning. When I was begging him to stop he would tell me he can stop whenever he wants, but people just expect things from him without doing things he expects them to do. He wouldn’t shower for a week and I would be an enemy number one. He then had a psychotic episode caused by shrooms and I think that scared him. He seemed to have been gradually getting better since, and he does seem to be honest about his slip ups.
Maybe I should give it a year, until September. Then, if he relapses again, call it quits.
I’m so glad you’ve managed to find joy in life again. I wish you all the best, and a lovely family in the future x