Hi Penny
I’m not a parent to an addict. I’m a partner to one (and currently trying to move/separate). I also get the physical symptoms and dread. It causes me a lot of anxiety. I feel as if I’m treading on eggshells, anticipating the next crisis or mood swing. I think it’s actually made me very ill.
I tend to enable just to survive and get a little peace. That’s why I need to get out and distance myself. I need to create a safe space. You should do everything you can to preserve your sanctuary. It is your home and you can decide what you will and won’t tolerate.
You are right to distance yourself and to set clear boundaries.
I am sure that the situation is incredibly triggering for you. If you are able to, seeking counselling and support to help you emotionally take care of yourself is very important.
xx