Yes, one of the reasons I am trying to get away is because of our child. They are young and impressionable. It is really confusing having a dad who is there but not there; who sometimes works and mostly doesn’t; and who is either high or on a come down. So he is either in a weird mood/very detached or in a terrible mood.
This kind of instability was not my childhood and I am mortified to have found myself in the position where I have chosen this person for my child’s father. To be fair, he was not an active addict when I was first with him and made the decision to have a child with him.
The problem is, these drugs and substances make them so selfish. All the think about is themselves and their needs/next fix. The idea of being able to wake up, not tread on eggshells, have a cheery breakfast and go about some activities for the day… is heaven. At the moment everything is controlled by him and we have no say in our lives or what happens. Mostly he is terribly moody and volatile.
I can’t wait to get out and give our child the peace and stability they deserve.
I hope you found some comfort and support on the Theresa thread. xx