Hi Natasha
He sounds vile.
I wish I could rescue you. It’s just intolerable. From what you’ve said, it seems as if you don’t have a voice either. This is one of the main things I cannot stand… I have no voice in this ‘relationship’. I cannot object to anything. I can’t say ‘no I don’t want to do that’… I can’t discuss anything. I cannot object to his usage or the money spent. It’s like he’s God or something.
Yesterday was not too bad as he was horrible to me first thing but then our mutual friend contacted me and asked if we wanted to take the kids to a fun day. So we all went to that. Drink was served and he had cigarettes, so he was happy. I enjoyed it because I wasn’t trapped in the house on a hot day with all the curtains and windows closed due to his paranoia.
He used again when he came home.
Anyway, this morning my dad is picking me and child up and we are going for a fun day over by his, then staying the night and coming back to our friends for a picnic. So… that’s good. A break for a bit.
I hope today is tolerable for you. I bet you are looking forward to your 2 x 12 hour shifts.
Thinking of you x