I have a cocaine addiction and had two wonderful living girlfriends who I hid this from throughout my using . I lost both and lost all friends from it . The more you lose the less likely you are to stay sober because you dwell on the things you could of had so what’s the point anymore . For anyone who has something good in there life work at you addiction then . Get them involved if you think they can cope with it . Don’t lose everything. That’s where I am . I’m on day 4 of sobriety and it’s emotional and demoralising as I have no future in sight but it’s the only way I will get anywhere so I have to go through this pain . I wish I had a partner to help but I only have my mum and she’s been hurt so bad by me it rots me inside . Please talk to people before it’s out of anyone elses hands xx
