Hi ????????
Sorry not been on here for a while….
Hope you’re both ok x
When my partner is on it he changes….
He is on a ‘high’ can be quite excited and upbeat… goes red under his eyes , gurns if he’s just done it.
Won’t sit still paranoid behaviours. Talks sh#t to people.
Cleans up sometimes lol
Hyped up
But I’m sick of it…. it’s after that drives me mad, not sleeping for 2 days this weekend roaming around looking like death, itching his skin. I can’t stand it anymore.
My partner isn’t my child’s dad…, he’s been in our lives a while living with us for over a year she’s mad about him… and this is what breaks my heart.
Her own dad is useless doesn’t bother and now she says she has a proper dad.
Obviously I love him too but I sit most weekends and. Cry.
Cry coz I feel guilty for having him here.
Cry coz I feel trapped because I don’t want to break my little girls heart chucking him out.
Cry coz I just want us all to be normal when he’s not on it.
He tells me he wants to stop but I guarantee you he won’t. He doesn’t even try… they constantly chasing that first hit which they won’t ever get again.
It’s heart breaking I can’t live like this much more.
But don’t want my little girl to hurt like she has with her own dad. But then keeping him here eventually if he doesn’t change will cause hurt too. I feel stuck x