I haven’t lost my daughter … yet.
Her problems started at 23 when she had a very successful career but met a drug dealer who moved in with her and got her onto cocaine. She also developed a codeine addiction.
She managed to seek help and get off them and met someone new. She got pregnant and due to the neglect of the NHS my grandson died at full term. She was also really sick and nearly died.
Since then and 3 years later she has spiralled out of control on just about anything she can lay her hands on. Alcohol, opiates prescribed by the NHS, solvent abuse, diazepam, morphine, sometimes cocaine when she can get it.
We even moved 200 miles in order to get away from drug dealers etc.
She has a court case against the nhs and refuses to seek help in case it goes on her record and she gets blamed for what I don’t know.
She’s nearly died of a cocodamol overdose.
Mental health services are shit and counselling or therapy has to be paid for.
We both had to give up our careers and go on benefits.
Life is very very cruel and we are stuck here with the fall out every day. I’m torn between anger and fear and not knowing what to do on a daily basis. Especially as her circumstances are so sad. However in this situation one ends up being an enabler.
All we can do for each other is share our stories and to know that there’s someone else there in the same hellish position gives a small amount of comfort.