Hi, sorry to hear you are going through this, my husband also describes himself as a functioning alcoholic, he walk out a few times, spending the night in a hotel, and blaming me for the reasons. I don’t contact him when this has happened. We try and talk when he comes back and he is apologetic and things are Nice for a time. Try focus on something to keep yourself busy is my best advice, I find reading or a puzzle, but I also have two young children so I focus on activities with them. I don’t know of I been any help but you are not alone x
