Hi Shell
Sorry to hear that. It is quite natural to feel all over the place and in bits.
One thing I have realised is that with my addict, I give him the power to do that to me and I don’t wish to do that anymore. It’s a turning point when you decide to take back your power and make your own decisions over what you will and won’t tolerate. Draw a boundary/line in the sand…
This split personality thing is very confusing. I liken mine to Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde.
You derserve respect. You don’t deserve to be called bad names, to worry for your safety or have him being abusive about your family and aggressive about your dad.