Well the bubble has burst 8 weeks on. He was twitching in his sleep last night which I have figured is a sign he is using. Anyway I did a secret test this morning and yes positive. I felt so shocked (don’t know why really) and hit rock bottom yet again. I asked him and of course he said no. I was out and about and couldn’t stop thinking about things so sent him a text to swear he hadn’t. Anyway he replied yes he had on Tuesday just 2 lines. He rang and I asked him why. Reply was that he was stressed at work been really tired from doing lots of miles on bike. He was at a pub with friend and someone he knew was there most likely a dealer who gave him a couple of lines. Do I believe this?? Said he wasn’t harming anyone. My reply was you’re harming me. He said It was only once since our last blow up. I am so fed up with this and don’t think I can take it anymore. Just feel like bawling my eyes out and we are supposed to be going away in 3 weeks. All paid for now which I was SO looking forward to. Haven’t been back home to see him yet as needed to give myself some time to think and I still don’t know what to do. Just feel so let down and hurt again x
