Hi so have had a little time to think. Spoke with him just now and he says his job is so stressful and that he is having a horrendous day and thank goodness he has a happy life outside of it and always looks forward to coming home. Bit gobsmacked like he is in complete denial of what has just taken place. I think he is also trying to make an excuse why he took it on Tuesday. Anyway I yet again seem to have forgiven him but not sure how much forgiveness is left in me. I have decided to go away with him on our trip and will deal with the consequences on our return if it happens again. Luckily I don’t think there will be any way of him getting any on holiday as we are going on safari and then to a small island. I would be horrified if he even tried…I think there will be time to talk while we are away and let him know exactly how he makes me feel with no escape to go anywhere else unless he gets another flight home but know he couldn’t afford that anyway. It is horrendous for us to have to live this life and the more it goes on and I forgive him I’m thinking how weak I am to let him walk all over me. I’m lucky in the way I have grown children but know exactly how you all feel as my last husband was an alcoholic and I stayed for their sake but eventually he had an affair which gave me a thankful reason to leave him. My children suffered greatly because of his behaviour and are now thankful that we separated. I think I must have a tendency to pick a certain type of person!!! I listen to all your advice and am very thankful for it and that I can talk to people who know exactly where we are coming from xx
