Another day and another positive test. He slipped up and forgot to flush the loo this morning. Yesterday and Wednesday evening were horrific the way that he was talking to me and treating me and couldn’t understand how he could be so so nasty but now I know. It was like he had verbal diarrhoea of completely horrendous things coming out of his mouth accusing me of doing things I hadn’t done and then completely ignoring what I was saying in protest to the accusations. Just horrible and then in the next breath talking to his son on the phone and being so nice. Completely broke this month and still somehow buying coke. 2 weeks till we go away. and then 3 weeks away then going to see when he next takes it and I think that has to be it. Or else do I accept that this is my life and that I am married to a coke addict. Devastated yet again x
