oh gosh debbie, you really do have to wonder how much more of this dreadful behaviour you have to subject yourself to xx
it doesn’t matter if it’s the addiction speaking – it’s you who is listening and feeling, having your self worth eroded.
he clearly has no intention to alter his behaviour at the moment and that is a painfully unalterable fact.
the way i see it you may have a chance at genuine discussion in the 3 weeks away, but from what you say i wouldn’t put it past him to sneak a little stash on board. i know people who have transported personal amounts of substances over the air routes …. shocking i know (I’m paranoid enough when obeying the rules!!!!)… but you have to remember that these addicts have crossed the line years ago, there is no longer a sensible, moral line for them to adhere to.
i feel for you so much… can you take a friend or your daughter instead? or even go it alone like in the end of a great movie or book where the heroine gets her life back and we all know she has great things ahead after a terrible time!!!!
my husband is still up and down mood wise but thank the lord drugs aren’t involved as your post reminds me of those godawful days and nights of disgusting and irrational nonsense xxxx
big hugs and be kind to yourself on yet another devastating morning on your journey xxxx