Well I’ve woken to another nightmare day. I said to him last night that I knew that he had been taking coke again as I had done a test and it was positive. He slept in the spare room and no idea what time he actually went to bed. I promised myself I wouldn’t say anything but unfortunately a few glasses of wine and it all came pouring out. I didn’t sleep at all last night and went in to his room and asked him to come to ours and he said no and I was lucky he was still there. Shocked again – I really don’t know how much more I can take – it’s so exhausting and I don’t want this life. I feel I may have jinxed our holiday and he won’t come sadly but maybe that is a good thing I don’t know. I don’t know what to say to him today but I know we have to talk – any advice would be good. I know not to be confrontational. I also know that he promised me after last time that he would tell me if he ever took it again – yet another lie x
