Hi FNF I am still totally confused how he can be so adamant that the test was wrong when it was so positive – maybe when I was out he just dipped it in water. His answer was maybe my daughter went for a wee in my loo when I didn’t know – she doesn’t even take coke although in the past she has at festivals only. I know it is his fault and yes he has to earn my trust but don’t think it will be there for a long time yet especially as he has let me down every time he has promised me he won’t do it again and I’m sure there will be more of this down the line! And yes he is a complete lying s**t – it makes me so angry that he tries to blame everyone else except himself. His son wants him to go to Henley with him the week before we go on honeymoon along with his son’s friend who bought the coke last time and all I could think of was they are going to do coke so I’m going to say before he goes that I am going to test him on his return and if he is positive I’m not going on our holiday with him. It will be really interesting to see what happens…I totally agree with you that the reason that he puts my family down is through embarrassment. I am absolutely going to voice to them that they are never to bring drugs into my house again and if they do that will be the last time they come down. It’s interesting that recently he has mentioned on several occasions that it is his house too like yesterday I made a comment about what were we going to do and he said I’m just sitting in my house watching television. I really am getting the impression that if we split he is going to make a claim on my house which really worries me. He is still belittling me tonight and I look at him and am starting to feel nothing for him x
