I haven’t been on here for ages. But it’s just over a year since I found out that my husband , of Five years has been lying to me from the very beginning. I suppose I find it difficult to use this site on my phone and I’m not really sure where the messages begin and end and which end of the conversation I’m replying to. But the best part is it doesn’t really matter. I knew a little bit about cocaine before I found out everything I know now. Because I work with quite a lot of people who take cocaine recreationally?? I think I’ve since decided there is no such thing as recreational cocaine. I’ve had a good think about it and I think that if you’re taking cocaine more than half a dozen times per year. You are definitely an addict! And that addiction only ever grows . I’ve never taken cocaine so from that point I can’t even comment on how addictive it is. But I know so many people who take cocaine is ridiculous. But it never stops you from seeing the signs with your loved ones. I never noticed from my husband because he was so good at taking it. But I know he only has three moods . Number one mood cocaine perfectly happy calm and reasonable. Number two mood come down grumpy reactive to everything silent Lethargie and general bad mood.
Mood number three and Inbetween mood which is subdue in the want for cocaine by having alcohol instead. My husband left me over a year ago because I dare ask him if he taken cocaine on the weekend. I’ve since realised it’s pointless trying because every time you try a halfway house you try and be kind. Kindness I don’t think really works. Maybe the only way is to be brutally harsh but fair. And realise that that individual has to get so low themselves before they can pull themselves out of the pit . That cocaine addiction has produced. I’ve heard an excuse for everything. And a reason for everything. But I’ve yet to hear him admit that he has a cocaine addiction. I’ve seen his nose bleeding I found cocaine. I’ve seen the weepy nose. I’ve seen the ultra happy and the ultra low. I’ve yet to say reality!