Hi thanks so much for the reply. I haven’t spoken to anyone else about it and feel like I am going mad. The initial shock is horrendous I cried for a couple of days and also felt queasy for a few days due to the stress. I feel better now and won’t let myself get into that mess again.
Yes I’m going to buy the drug tests and randomly surprise him. He said we can go through his bank account every month and he’s going to start sending me the money again for the savings so I should be able to see that he isn’t buying drugs. I just can’t believe this is happening to me. I’m not even sure I do love him enough to get through this.
I take it your husband is doing good now, that is great to hear. I have had a long chat with my husband about when he took it and he said during work (he’s a labourer) and if we were drinking in the house he would sometimes have taken some but not all the time. He said he doesn’t take it every day like he wouldn’t take it at the weekend when we aren’t doing anything in the house and I do believe him.
I just want to know whether I can trust him going forward or not. He is giving up drinking also as although it isn’t a problem the two may go hand in hand. Its been a week and a half since I’ve found out and he said he hasn’t taken any and he does seem normal.
There were maybe times he has come home from work strange and I knew there was something up but he always completely denied it which hurts so much in itself.
I plan to read through some of the stories and chat with everyone to try and get through this xx