So today he is acting as if nothing has happened and still has not admitted to me that he has a problem. I just don’t know where to go from here. I want to say so much to him but he just gets angry and I wouldn’t trust that lies weren’t coming out of his mouth. I want to know if he owes money to dealers, how much he is in debt on credit cards and his bank, how often he has been taking it, how long he has been taking it, if he wants to stop (which I don’t think he does). I want to say I don’t want class A drugs in my house. I want him to sign a post nuptial to protect myself. I want him to say to his son not to bring any coke near him. I want a happy life going forwards but I don’t think I could ever trust him not to relapse going forward. I think my mental health has hit the bottom and I just don’t know what to do. I wish I could be strong enough to say this isn’t what I want out of life and to leave him when we get back from holiday. It’s all such a mess and I am reading so many unhappy situations on here -sorry for the rant x
