and i also remember my husband wouldn’t look at me, not at all… i never knew why, it was because he was lying, ashamed and didn’t want me to see he was on that stuff.. i remember when he started looking me in the eye again and that’s when i knew he was ready to start being honest and upright once again. and that’s how i feel sure he still is clean… obviously the cynic in me wonders if he’s just learned to cover his tracks better by using eye contact, but that’s what happens when you take a sledgehammer to the marital trust you once had x
