Hey bythesea,
ive been a bit crazy this week but it’s so good that your husband wants to prove himself clean. We’re the lucky ones in this nightmare. He sounds as if he wanted out. Addiction is misery. The word originated from the roman word for slavery.. makes sense right!?
Any addict who tells you they are happy is lying to themselves, it’s misery but their brains are all mixed up.. I recommend you read up on the facts of addiction. Knowledge is power! Healthline is good and i went on lot of recovery centre/ rehabs web sites. When you understand the mechanics you can understand why they behaved the way they did.
Talking is also key… you’re both stuck with horrible memories… complete opposite sides of the same coin. I found talking through these bad memories helped me understand how sorry and regretful my husband is. It also helped him understand how hurt i am.
It’s painful but it helped us understand eachother.
I’m sending this one now as my sausage fingers keep hitting cancel and this is my 4th attempt grrr x