Hi Dasey, welcome to the forum and thank you for sharing your story here.
I felt I had to respond to you, as this story resonates with me and the way my son behaved while addicted to alcohol and cocaine. ( the alcohol triggers the need for cocaine)
I joined the Theresa thread here, who are all mums with sons with addictions. Everyone is so supportive and understanding. I was able to share my story with them when I felt I couldn’t talk to anyone I knew.
The adfam homepage offer advice and support also Drugfam and the Icarus trust posts here too.
One thing I’ve learned is that you cannot force them to seek help, it has to be THEIR decision.
Please take time out for yourself- this behaviour can consume a family. Please try to stay strong. Read Danman83 and Jamesb posts who are in recovery and offer great advice from their perspective.
My 29yr son reached out for help 2/3 yrs ago- through CA and AA groups, he is currently 1 yr free of drugs and alcohol. It’s been a rocky ride , and every day is a battle for them, but so worth it.
Take care Dasey, and stay strong.
Lx ❤️