You sound exactly the same as me – I have had to kick him out on Friday night, I’m in a vicious cycle and my sons now 2 and he’s asking where daddy is every other week 🙁 it’s so hard to deal with I completely sympathise with you – I feel terrible for kicking mine out as I know he’ll be sniffing even more drugs from the stress but I can’t physically take it anymore and I think he needs to realise what he’s doing, I’m so upset by it all it’s making me physically ill I’ve got a mouth full of ulcers and my skins horrendous my hairs falling out.
I’ve been giving him endless chances now for years, but why when he doesn’t come home and let’s me down again am I shocked? I feel like such an idiot