Thank you lovely
I’ve asked him to get help for grieving as he says he is glum all the time!!!
I couldn’t face a row tonight. Even tho I’ve broken my heart yet again. He says not to go there!!!
He says he is suffering with agoraphobia ( he scared to leave the house on his own) does cocaine do this to you? I thought this give you a high? Made you feel better or is this part of the come down? I’m still trying to understand how this drug works. As he is never happy! I know when he has taken it as he is more talkative and walks around constantly, he also has a stupid grin that he pulls.
Then when I get home he says he not hungry and needs to sleep after all the stress of the day!! Then following day eats all day and sleeps.
Why can’t they see what they are doing to us and ask for help and not lie. I think if he told me the truth I will help him but I can’t do the lies. I think this is what is killing me that I know and he hadn’t open up to me.
I have to get the courage to tell him I know and he has to get help or I’m leaving. Every time I write that my heart pangs. It feels good to share
Take care lovely and I hope you have a good week with your boys xx