It’s like a rollercoaster isn’t it – well done for kicking him out though it’s so hard. It’s so tempting just to get back to normal and everything’s great on the face of it but then it’s always there in the back of your mind when will they do it again…My partner just will not admit anything, the lies are the worst, I know he was doing it last night cos I could hear him sniffing and in the morning there were crumbs on the side, I said you need to go when he got up this morning and then he sends a long text apologising saying he’ll do anything blah blah so try to talk tonight and he’s back to denying it making out I’m imagining it all and it’s my fault he’s acting strange cos I haven’t been talking to him! He said so you think I’ve been acting normal today and I said yes and he started laughing – I think he’s just trying to mess with my head. I just said I give up he needs to go. I’ve tried like you over and over to sort things out for him and I’ve had enough. Unfortunately he hasn’t gone though he’s just in the conservatory staring out the window so not sure what’s going to happen I just want him to leave.
I know what you mean about making you ill I’ve not slept properly for the last 4 weeks just feel really run down.
xx