Hey Locato big welcome to you!
I think your story reflects so many of us here. And the feeling alone, absolutely. I have no one to share my struggles with either so it is tough but I promise you its doable.
I used to get the pains too, its frightening but they will soon stop once the paracetamol and ibuprofen are removed.
Any way you want to tackle this is good and we will all support you xx