Hi everyone,
I have been married to my partner from the past two years, we have 9 months old baby, I came to visit my parents for couple of days, by mistake I left my son’s baby monitor camera on, my partner was at home (told me he is at work), I was checking my phone and by chance clicked on the app. I am shocked to discovered that my husband was taking cocaine and alcohol in a very large amount. We have a very beautiful family life, he always acted very good towards me and my son, he has a very good job, he made me quit my job, so I can look after the baby and the family’s life.
Sitting here and thinking about all those clues in the house related to his drugs addiction making me sick and very upset. Since I saw him taking drugs, I can’t sleep or eat and I am very stressed. My dream of this ideal life will were building together is shutter in million pieces. All I am thinking how long more when he will start doing this in-front of us, I mean how long more he will hide it from us and how I will react when I go back to home and see those clues, which makes sense not.
He gave me money and bring lots of food but every-time, I laughed he made me upset with his comments and he has no sympathy with me, all this time I thought it is his nature and that’s his mood but now it makes sense.
We recently bought a house on his name, he didn’t put my name in the mortgage, because I have a house on my name, which was given to me by my parents as a gift, according to him, if he put my name in his house then he will get a high interest rate mortgage and will consider a second time buyer, but he has no savings so he asked me for the deposit money and stupid me dreaming about family life etc gave him all my savings and he asked me to sign a gift letter so bank can give him a mortgage. Long story short, I gave him all my money without telling anyone and signed a letter that this is a gift and I have nothing to do with the house. So basically I am totally relay on him financially as I have zero savings.
I don’t know what should I do, shall I tell him that I saw him or keep it to myself. My son is only 9 months old and my husband is a great father. After seeing things on the camera, will I be able to leave my baby alone with him? I mean I can’t trust him anymore, all this time I thought he is giving money to his family that’s why more than a half of his salary is missing every month. They way he was taking the drugs doesn’t seems like he has recently started this, he seems proper addicted. Seeing him through the camera using pornography website and gambling sites makes me worried what if he do something to me or my son, while we are sleeping or when my son is alone with him. I have millions of questions and someone please advise me, shall I act normally when I go back home or tell him.
Thank you