Hi Navy, thank you for your kind words. It’s so bitter sweet reading what you said because the only way I have gained knowledge on this and am able to give the insight to people like yourself about what cocaine addiction is really like is because I was at one point the person that most of you who post come on here to vent about.
I’m not proud of my actions and the effect it’s had on my life is unmeasurable, and I would give anything to be able to fix the damage I have caused but knowing that in some way I can help others at least makes it in some way worth it. I always wish and you’re a prime example, that
I could just say right, take my number tell your partner to call me and I’ll tell him exactly what’s going to happen to him if he doesn’t sort it out because I’m pretty sure he won’t won’t to end up like me.
I turned the woman I love into someone who she was not, she’s paranoid, controlling, aggressive and who was once a outgoing loving person is now emotionless and numb all due to the pain I put her through with my addiction and the constant lies and manipulation.
Furthermore, I’m now sober, trustworthy and would do anything to have my family back but its too late and she will never be able to forgive meaning that at best I see my little only at weekends and I have to face that I am missing so much of her growing up.
Please try your best to stay true to who you are and know that regardless of pressure you put on him, he will only make the changes when he is ready. I hope your both of your sakes that is sooner than it was for me. Maybe ask him to ready through some of the forum posts so he can see how lucky he is to have someone who still is willing to try and love him.
Sorry to rant, tough week.
Stay strong
James x