This actually made me cry, to see that I am actually not the only person going through this… I’m so sorry that you’re dealing with this also.
He used to admit it, but now he doesn’t class himself as an addict and it’s really sad. I’m the bad one, I’m the one overreacting… it’s absolutely killing me. I’m 31 with three beautiful kids and an amazing job… And I just feel like I have nothing because my mind is so full with worry and anxiety about him and what he’s doing. I feel like I’m literally living a double life. I’m the same, being treated for depression and I know every single thing about cocaine and have never done it either.
Yes I also feel that calm that you’re talking about but then my mind flicks back to the 12 years we’ve had together and the life that we’ve shared… it’s an absolute rollercoaster and I feel sick!
What is your situation right now purpleheart? Xxx