I honestly could’ve written your post myself!! It’s scary how similar this is!! Mine has now stopped saying he’ll get better… he did at first and for a long time after. The more I accepted him back the more it was my fault for the crappy marriage. I will take the blame for my coldness, my lack of trust and my constant watching him… but I wasn’t like this before all of this. I was happy and bubbly. I’m damaged and traumatised.
I’ve never taken drugs, So I really don’t understand… but the hold this has on his mind is petrifying. Also, mine doesn’t get up in a morning either, he works and gets up for work.. but comes home and naps all day after work and sleeps in until midday on weekends. It’s miserable!
I can’t imagine walking out on my family, going back to my mums and blocking the person I’m married to. How can he do that?
I hear you loud and clear when you say you can’t believe he’s the person you’ve been with 15 years, it’s traumatising! all those times we’ve been for a meal, away in hotels and just sat at home with a bottle of wine… all drug fuelled benders that I was stupidly unaware of.
I hate what he’s doing to me.
Thank you for being here, I can’t tell you how much it helps. I genuinely hope that you guys can sort it out cause it’s actually petrifying. Xxxx